smiles.

#303. Moved, again.

2010-04-08T23:47:00.002+08:00

I've moved, again. No worries, it won't be for good!

Ah, just hover over HERE!

(:

#302. 9 more days!

2010-04-07T00:02:00.004+08:00

It's day 7 of the month again! Time really flies.

HAPPY 10th BABY LOVE!

I still love you as much♥

&9 more days and you'll be back again! Single digit, YAY!
I miss my little dummy cutie kiddy boy :D

(PS : I think my hammies are having making out, they keep squeaking, HAHA.)

#301. I can't believe.

2010-04-06T00:33:00.004+08:00

Seriously I can't believe I'm having these kinda thought, I ought to be screwed upside down after blogging this out.
I used to detest these kinda people but now . . .

I wanna be 50kg.
I wanna be about 1.65m.
(PS : Not that I'm not proud of my overall now, I still feel awesome with my own skin :D)

&Start encouraging me people, I'm giving driving another try.
The thought of driving to fetch and dropping off baby at his camp gate is real awesome!
Let it be my motivation, you demoralisers SHUT UP!

My boo lost count, is it a good thing or a bad thing?
AWWWWWWWWWW (pinch his cheek)

WHEN YOU JUST FEEL LIKE BEING HELD IN SOMEONE SPECIAL'S ARMS AND CRYING YOUR HEART OUT FOR NO REASON

this exactly hit me right on the spot. That's exactly the feeling I feel every time, I just want to be in your arms, crying. 'Cause I'm too happy that you're mine, and still mine♥

( credits to Rae :D )

#300. I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did.

2010-04-05T01:11:00.005+08:00

Day 300, I love you.
Even though you're not here, I still love you as much.
I miss you too.
One last weekend alone and you'll be back already! YAY!

Thanks to people, especially LESBI and BESTIE, for accompanying me through these lonely weekends (:

Been hearing songs that would remind me of you, like your stupid movements to the song and stuffs like that♥

#299. Gone.

2010-04-04T00:02:00.004+08:00

Bukit Merah McDonald's gone, forever.
Even thought it'll open again, it'll never be the same. Everything will change, the people and the management. The BM spirit that we've built up would be gone. I'll visit the place when it reopens, but it's not the same. It never will be.

I'm seriously jobless now and I seriously need to save up the money, the remaining money that I'll have after paying the bills will be darn pathetic. I really need to save up, Singyee PLEASE!
&When the hell is Starhub gonna call! :(

One more weekend alone! I don't want to be alone again, I really don't. The feeling of being alone without you was so damn painful, companion of friends didn't help as much to fill up the emptiness.
Domo isn't helping, I want my dumb dumb.
I miss spending the time just chilling over at your place, I miss you.

我要抱抱♥

#294. Jobless.

2010-03-30T16:16:00.003+08:00

Before you continue, I prolly should tell you that you can don't bother continuing cause it's all crap. I don't know what I'm typing now, no inspiration and shit stuff.

Taka had already ended, everybody's jobless.
Other than Yvonne of course.

Waiting for pay to be out, I really need to touch up on my hair.
Should I get a tattoo too?

Tuesday and I'm gonna be at home the entire day, baby keep complaining that I'm spending money which I don't think there's anything wrong with it.
I'm just spending on things which I think it's worth.

My skin is disgusting me,. Especially my hand, it's freaking dry.

Tomorrow's BM last day.
Everybody remembers everybody but I really wonder who would actually remembers me.
BBQ at 9pm in store tomorrow, I'll miss the place and not the people.

I miss my love.
I can even feel his love when I'm looking at his pictures. Baby, do you feel the same way?

&&I miss lesbi (:

#292. Thank you.

2010-03-28T00:39:00.003+08:00

You called and I'm glad that you're not mad.
That's what make me fall in love with you over again sometimes(:

Last day of the fair, Hella happy.
3 days more till BM close, freaking sad.
17 more days till baby's back! YIPPEE!

I seriously forgot that it's freaking weekend!

#291. Sorry.

2010-03-27T02:10:00.002+08:00

&Normally, I'll be over at your place now. Hugging you to sleep and wake up looking at your face.

Yesterday started real fine, baby called in the morning when I'm setting up at work. Happy as hell, real happy.
Met Steph and Van after work for movie, actually I left early at 9pm plus.

I turned my phone to silent and kept it in my bag, thinking that you won't call me this early. When I'm watching this scene, I got this feeling that you called and I couldn't get back to you 'cause it's an unknown number. This feeling suck, sucked real bad. I don't like missed call from you, why am I so dumb seriously.
I cried in the cinema, didn't want to leave the place. I was kicking the seats infront of me, felt like screaming 'cause I know you're blaming me now. I bet you're still blaming me right now.
All I pray now was that you'll be able to call me later, anytime of the day. At least before you leave for field. But I'm afraid, that missed call was the last call from you before you actually disappear.

Baby, please call me later. Please call, I really miss you and your voice.
I miss hugging you and cuddling up to you.
Randomly, I want you to piggy back me now.
I want to see your face now.

&I'm sorry, I'm not that strong. I kept crying when you called, especially when you say you're freezing there. My heart hurts for you.

Baby, Jiayou.
&I love how you called me just to ensure me that you're alright even just for 5 minutes.

&&It's actually 230am now, and I'm still waiting for you to actually call me.
I don't dare to go to bed, 'cause I'm afraid that you'll call and I didn't pick it up again.

Sorry Van.
Sorry Steph.

#290. I miss you.

2010-03-26T00:11:00.000+08:00

Work was awesome still, with the same promoters(:
Okay, minus that _|_ I still hate her. Everybody around can see that very obviously!
Oh whatever. It's Friday! 2 more hell day!

나는 당신을 놓친다
告诉我, 我是你的 ♥

#289. Awesome people.

2010-03-25T00:26:00.003+08:00

Count down : 3 more days to tear down day.
Like finally! This fair passed by ultra fast somehow, must be the awesome people I've been working with. Okay, just minus our bosses and keep the Medela&Safety 1st promoters (:

All of us just started talking only earlier this week and there's so much bitching and gossiping going on!Seriously awesome. Didn't want the fair to end so soon cause we just started to know each other! But then again, I don't wanna see the fucker's face.

Sorry baby, don't be jealous when you see this!

Daddy said to wait till July if I wanna enroll 'cause he just change a new job :(
Oh wells! Ah, I'll call the person up to double confirm!

I miss my babylove. He managed to call me and I didn't want to hang up, I really really miss him. Sometimes I wonder is my baby alright there? is my baby surviving the coldness? sigh.
15 April please come fast! I want you now as much as you want me too.

Bestie and Lesbi will always be my top most love.
Boyfriend is the toppest of the top!

#288. They say . . .

2010-03-24T00:41:00.002+08:00

It's only been a day since you left, but I missed you hell lots already.
Even though you'll be gone for about a month, I'm making it sound like you'll be gone for centuries. (steph say so.)
I don't know, I just miss you.
I still want my personal warmer!
Images of me cuddling up to you and silently letting the clock tick by kept flashing in my mind.
I really miss you, but I'll be brave!

&What's with those people.
Not studying meant that I'm still immature? You should be the one growing up, at least I'm living my life.

On a brighter note, I'm gonna attend a wedding in may.
& I'm not going as a guest which I thought I would be, but as a BRIDESMAID!

HELL YEA EXCITED NOW!

#287. Bon voyage!

2010-03-23T01:51:00.004+08:00

Baby's on his way to Taiwan now, for NS training.
A month, I'll try to at least treat these period as his confinements and field camp.

Specially skipped work on Sunday and change off day to Monday just to accompany him.
Sunday was best, he finally slept on my bed after so damn long. Aww, I missed his scent on my bed! Simply put, he stayed over and still secretly. HAHA! Waking up with your loved one beside you is darn awesome!
Woke up and left for his house, slacked and sleep for a bit before heading out for movie. Kaiji, not bad la.
Home afterward 'cause he had to book in for the night.

Work up by baby's call this morning, he's coming home earlier than expected. He came over and I'm still half awake! Headed to his house and out again for suki sushi a cine and taka for him to say bye, feel like slapping that bitch seriously.
Bugis for "arcade" session and home. Time is on our side, time passed by kinda slowly.
Slacked and airport for his departure :(
I really really don't want him to leave! I really really am missing him a lot!

That noob's on the plane now, his virgin plane ride, sitting at the window seat.
That cute little boy, my babylove. I wonder, are you missing me right now. I am missing you! Sorry baby, I can't help but to cry. I'm sorry, I don't want to make you cry either.

Baby jiayou! Do this for my sake, please be safe! Take good care of myself!
I'll be missing you every second of the day.

I miss your hugs, your warmth and your scent.
I miss hugging you to make myself feel warmer when I'm cold, I miss my personal heater.

I promise you, I'll take good care of myself!

Bestie and lesbi, thank you(:
<3

#286. LOVE.

2010-03-22T00:27:00.003+08:00

Stephy came down randomly on Saturday just to pass me a drink (: Thanks! hee <3

Baby flying off real soon. Again because of the dumb fair, I don't get the chance to spend with baby. Sigh.

LAST WEEK OF FAIR! 6 more days, I'll get it over and done with real soon!

#282. A totally random day!

2010-03-18T00:19:00.003+08:00

Initially was suppose to reach First Media Design School by 11am for a briefing cum school tour but it was postpone to 2pm, and that makes some time for me to look for people to go with. I'm those type of people whom would not absorb as much and it'll be safer to ask someone random to absorb for me so the random person will tell me again to make sure I absorb.
&The the random person happen to be LEE HUI MIN!

Met that random person at Bukit merah mac for lunch. Omg, I miss that place. Please note, only the place and not the people there.
Headed out to FMDS and stayed for about 30 minutes and started to rain when we're done. RANDOMLY we stopped at lucky chinatown for a bit and RANDOMLY went up for some K session. K member special was $8 and it's applicable for that member and the guest. AWESOME! Two of us K-ed till 6pm and off to Tiong to get something for baby, SURPRISE! (PS : I purposely put it here so that you'll be ultra excited to know!)
Back to chinatown for steamboat to satisfy our RANDOM craving.
Anyway we really have hell lots to update.

&&That's the end of our RANDOM day.
Only that it RANDOMLY ended in a bad way, baby was angry :(

SIGGGGGGGGGGH!

940am till 640pm tomorrow and Mahjong/sleepover at Stephy's (:
Can't wait!

DOMOOOOOOOOOO~♥

#280. PMS in progess.

2010-03-16T00:10:00.003+08:00

I think it's PMS. I've been complaining and feeling unhappy lately, don't like.
PMS led to arguments with baby which were totally unnecessary.

At least work on Monday was still alright, 'cause the in charge left early and there's like hardly customers around.
Monday was a good day, FMDS called me up for test and interview and Stephy told me that her workplace's hiring again(:
Wanted to meet Bestie after work but she's meeting whole load bunch of people and they're drinking, the best part was that she tell me nothing. Home after reaching city hall and realizing, thank god that I didn't tap out. Sorry bestie, if you know me well enough that I don't like to meet you and along with other people which I barely know.

Sweet escape to somewhere near with my favorite people soon! (:

I earn my boyfriend and I own him now.

Koh Wen Bin!
I love you and will still love you.
Jiayou for all the trainings and make me even more proud of you(:
Love you baby!

#273.

2010-03-09T23:56:00.005+08:00

Second day of baby's field camp, I miss him like seriously a lot!
Taka baby fair setup today, was told that it wasn't necessary for me to be there and was told off. What the fuck seriously. Okay whatever, just for the sake of the damn money.

This is the first time we set everything up till frigging late, from about 3pm till 10pm. Goods came uberly slow.
Would be working with the same faces and two new guys at my age, I bet I'm still the youngest and still the tallest. HAHA. There's guys this time, hell lot easier. Ever since baby left, the ladies have to do the hard work ourselves. Oops! (:

Taka fair, here comes the boredom.
Anybody's in town please look for me at Takashimaya basement 2!

About exactly a year ago, I meet you♥
&Never regretted meeting you till now. The only thing that I've regretted is I'm semi attached a year ago and almost lost you.
&A year ago somebody asked me to return him rupee 1dollar for that Japanese pancake uh? (:
I should have sensed it that time, ugh.

I miss my love, I miss his voice and I miss his childishness.
I just miss him.
Sigh, one month.

#271.

2010-03-07T21:03:00.004+08:00

Saturday was a simple yet another awesome day, weekends are usually the best especially I get to be around him 24/7.

Stayed over at his house after clubbing night, woke up pretty darn late and we ended up doing nothing much. Just one meal for the entire day.
Walked over to lucky plaza after he claim that he's too lazy, got himself a perfume and damn I'm addicted to his smell (:
Ended our day by late night movie at CWP, no more earlier slots. Being human, funny but the storyline suck a little.
Back to my own home and brought out domo, the kid's cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuute! That classic little kid reaction just made me melt, hee(:
Last minute plan to stay over, grab my stuff and cab to his place

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HAPPY 9TH BABYLOVE!

My ever so cute stalker and loving boyfie!

&This segment belongs to only YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU!♥

Baby baby, I wanted to write you a letter but I don't have the time. We ended up waking up the same time (pout).
Baby, in 3 more months time we'll be a year old. Like finally and feels so unreal. Yea, I know I've been saying this for months but you really feels unreal and I still don't believe that you're mine and I'm holding on to you.
To my oh so ever cute love, I love you and still loving you more and more each time. Thanks for coming into my live and showed me to the world, guide and accompany me throughout this relationship.
&When I'm with you, I only see you.
I really hope that this love will go on till forever and I'll hold on to your heart and keep it safe, this I promise you.

I love you, more than words can say.

Alice in the wonderland - 3/5. Don't catch the 3D, there's not much difference.

#269.

2010-03-05T01:12:00.003+08:00

PS : Everything's re-post here(:

Thursday was the awesome-est day in the week, spent it with Van and retail therapy with Stephy afterwards.
Even though it's just another short day, we had fun still and this time I'm the one getting things. Too bad pay wasn't as much.
Wanted to get sandals and ended up stuck in the shop wondering if to get that awesome heel. Got it anyway, it's only 21bucks only! Steph kept saying that I psycho her, wth :(
&I've gotten my new love still(:

Today's baby's POP day.
Finally, 3rd Sergeant Koh♥
His home and headed out to Phuture and that day happens to be Phuture's 14th anniversary and it led to hell lots of people, they're just suckers; pissed. Left for their smoke break, initially was to go off but we went up again to grab drinks thus we stayed even longer and danced at the bar instead. Steph, HAHA.
Hello lesbie! HAHA(:

Home around 4 plus am, baby's cabbie is awesome. Like seriously.

Lesbie, when are you meeting me again? HAHA.

#267.

2010-03-03T00:04:00.009+08:00

&I've just told my dad off regarding my useless younger brother.
Indeed useless. A whole brand new set of Acer desktop for his 16 birthday and now wants a lappy for his school, what the fuck seriously. Pissed.

&He just told me that he's proud of me for I'm independent enough.
He said that I was VERY independent since primary 4! and he was worried instead of feeling safe =.=

Anyway, I'm here to say.

HELLO STALKER (:

I love you ♥♥♥

Pay's in! Shopping time!
Meeting stephy for some retail therapy session on Thursday, hopefully that will get her mind off your result day. HAHA!
Hello idiot! (:

{added /}

Aww, my awesome baby is jealous! HAHA!
Love love love (:
PS : Just because I told him that I text steph saying that I miss her. HAHA! Awwwwww.

#265.

2010-03-01T17:16:00.002+08:00

A brand new month, March.
&I've open this post for the third time and finally I'm posting something.
&&After typing that sentence, I've forgotten the purpose and what I'm gonna blog. Lemme think for a bit, think this post would take about an hour or so to finish, tsk.

So, I've a lot of things to do. Money included. I guess I'm not those type whom prioritise what I need to get first.
I wanna get new clothes, I wanna get eyelash extentions, 9th this sunday and I also realised that I needa get contacts cause my eye are failing me badly. &You know what, I still owe baby money. Fucking hell, mac seriously can't pay for my needs.

The most important thing of everything is the 9th this coming Sunday, so that means I have less than 6 days to think of what to get and where to go that day.
I feel like making something for him myself but I've ran out of ideas. Buying things for him wasn't the plan cause he has almost everything he wants and doesn't tell me what he wants anyway. (other than me. HAHA!)
Ah, shall stop ranting about that and start thinking harder.

Eyelash extention wasn't necessary, guess I'll just live with falsies for now.
The thought of doing it was due to that I'm getting lazier to put on make up and don't want to look ultra plain.

Oh oh, forget to add on to the list.
I've successfully finish my bottle of perfume and gonna get another one. Anybody has any nice ones tell me alright?
Steph told me a lot and I've forgotten :(

Okay, I really forget what to blog till the extend that I even went down to 711 to get a drink and a snack =.=
Yes, they opened a 711 under a HDB block, cool enough.
711's convenient indeed, I can pay bills there already without walking much (:
lazy, yes.
&&I can get alcohol or beer whenever I feel down or feel like drinking! HAHA!

Okay, never drink drunk. Talking rubbish now.
Addicted to Pocari Sweat! ♥

4 more days to Sergeant Koh uh baby(:

2010-02-26T00:29:00.001+08:00

Virgo's love horoscope for 26 February 2010.

"You've probably been feeling a tiny bit overwhelmed, but right about now everything begins to fall into place. Resolving a relationship issue, whether large or small, gets a lot easier."

Hope we can resolve everything soon.
I miss you too damn much.

#261.

2010-02-25T03:09:00.004+08:00

Everything went wrong, just for being too random.
There's too much in between, at least we've talk it out.

I won't ask for a third chance 'cause this time is more for yourself to decide.
&I refuse to take the same shit again like in the beginning.
&&I won't want to tear down the things we've build up, you know we had come so far.

I just want a normal weekend with amazing time, 'cause I miss you too damn much.

How I wish this would be one of our small arguments whereby it'll end up well.
But this one is quite major.

Past.
Sigh.

My bad.

#260.

2010-02-24T16:03:00.003+08:00

While waiting for the time to go out and for my mum to finish cooking, I shall blog for a bit (:

Singtel cut my line again 'cause I'm too lazy to go out and pay them. I always reminded myself to do so and ended up forgetting to bring the bill along with me whenever I go out and ended up I'm owing them too much to the extend of unable to pay them back in full now.
My bill : $420
Mainly is because of my messages, my plan ain't unlimited. Gonna change it after I cleared my bill. At least the monthly bills would be lesser.
So meanwhile I'll be using a prepaid number till Arpil and if you people still wanna contact me till while I'm on hiatus from 8399xxxx, tag me or fb me and I'll text you guys back(:

To Steph and to all humans who are losing friendships because of some particular reason,
It isn't worth to build back a friendship when the other don't even care and sometimes it's alright to lose a friend even though it's a friendship that's worth TEN bloody long years. 'Cause you'll eventually gain another one.
Steph, you have me! HAHA(:

Sometimes I don't even bother to have friends anymore, what's the point of having so many friends whereby you put him/her in the first place in everything in your life and they gives shit to you.
Well, all I really need now is my 2 BFs, my twinny and stephyyyyyyy(welcome to the family :D ).
I do have other friends but I grade them. People next in line would be someone I don't see and contact all the time and still meet up once in a while and still can talk and laugh at the same things. Yes, you! (:
I enjoy one's company as long as they enjoy mine, and they appreciate and understand where I'm coming from. Friends tells you the truth, but I also need friends who supports me and not tells me off each time.

I'm losing friend, I don't care. I'm picky when it comes to friends too:D
You pass if you still wanna be my friend even after my ultimate weapon, BLACK FACE!
Ask van, she's the first(:
HAHAHA!

Weather's killer again!
Meeting van for movies and chilling session(:
My bestie for nearing 3 years, she beat that to baby hands down. HAHA!

#259.

2010-02-23T00:52:00.003+08:00

I miss my baby.
Audition later on and it's 1am right now.

I really wanna hear his voice. I want to hear him cheering me on for audition, telling me that it'll turn out alright. I wanna just hug him.
Hopefully he'll be back before my audition, sigh.

&Thanks for the messages, appreciated and will try not to disappoint you people(:

I'm gonna be sick and having LOVE sick right now :(

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

The moment when I step out of the lift at level 5, I saw a ballerina and that moment tells me that I don't belong there and I just walk away and didn't turn back.

Sorry to all(:

Weather's a killer earlier today, sweat like I just came out of shower. It's been a while since I've sweat like that, the last time was tanning and it was willingly. HAHA.
Walked over to Bugis Junction and and grabbed yami yoghurt and sat outside BHG to chill alone. Waited for time to pass and ended up waited for Steph for a last minute shopping and catching up time(:
Sometimes I do wish that I'm actually smoking and at least do something while waiting.

Idiot, thanks for the on-ness and the company to kill time(: Sorry that I ended up not shopping after asking you out, haha.

I really miss my boyf, feels insecure now. Sigh.

#257.

2010-02-21T23:06:00.005+08:00

Mind's blank right now, slept only for 3 hours before heading out to work till now. I don't know how to start like really and damn freaking tired, I should've wash my clothes first.

Okay, Lemme restart.
(clear throat)

Clubbing session with the right people was awesome even though 25% of the music played suck horribly and 65% just suck because of the people. People who goes to Phuture are despos whom guys are literally grinding on girls and couples (or not) are trying to fuck each other on the dance floor. Eww.
I know it should be just normal that all these are happening in the club, oh wells.

&I've found a awsome and WEIRD someone to club with. That idiot, HAHA! (dead)
Hi hello(:

And should really find something healthy to do on the weekends like seriously (:

I didn't skip work (YAY!) today despite knowing that I won't even get to at least having dinner together and sending him off.
Sigh, saddening especially when he'll be in field camp again for the next two day!
I miss himmmmmmmmmmmmmm!
I just wish I could hold him and don't let him leave my side, domo's not helping a lot. I feel retarded talking to domo even though both of them don't answer me. HAHA! But still I enjoy talking to both of them.
I really miss my cute stalker. sigh.
This weekend is really short, I want his hugs and random dumbness NOW!

Going 9 months soon and I'm still not used to the booking back in thing. Think I'm really glued to him.
I shouldn't and can't be like this, he'll not be happy.

&&&Baby, even though I won't have enough sleep or no sleep at all, I would still wanna hear you and look at you. I just wanna be beside you.
I'd rather wake up next to you which that dumb face always make my day without fail and than going home and sleep alone and have ample rest(:

#255.

2010-02-18T22:29:00.003+08:00

I know I wanna blog but I really don't know how to start. &Starting by telling you people that I don't know how to start is like ultra WTF.

Work's being a bitch.
Aunties are calling me FAKE layhong(my senior STAR). CLs aren't happy about the fact that I'm now a STAR and no longer a crew. &&Managers don't keep promises, they keep wanting their own way without being reasonable.
And also a lot more to it, endless till I don't wanna say anything about it anymore.

Shan't say anymore about work, plain useless.

Baby's still out on field camp, damn I really miss him. Empty being home without his calls and his reassuring love.
He'll be back and book out tomorrow! This week's indeed short, I can see him again (:
I want my dumb dumb froggy domokun baby! HEEHEE(:

Hugging domo now. What baby told me kept repeating in my mind(:

"Domo's like me, like to go down to sleep suddenly ."

CUUUUUUTE! 'caue I complained that I found my domo lying on the floor when I wake up(:
I miss KWB I miss KWB I miss KWB I miss KWB I miss KWB I miss KWB I miss KWB I miss KWB!

A dose of clubbing session this Saturday!
Look for me at phuture this weekend okay(: Let's go party!

Pay's in! My dumb dumb's gonna start taking care of my spendings and my money!
HUBBY♡
(:

#253.

2010-02-17T00:31:00.005+08:00

It's 1215am and I've just hung up the phone with my babylove♡
For the first time, we talked for about 2 hours and 30 min plus long! I love these heart to heart talk between us. Well, most of the time it was about my endless questions and your life. I can ask you and take it this easy because I believed our LOVE and rather not believe in the nonsense I conjure up. I wish you could do the same some day, and finally ask me things that you wanna ask(:

Talking back to a year ago, when I know you.
Damn, I wish we could've the chance to be together earlier. I really want badly for everything you said to happen.

"Maybe I would talk to you more?"
"Maybe I'll take train with you than taking bus"

Ah! I really want the clock to turn back badly, so I can enjoy that company. That little thing could've made my heart melt. HAHA.
Can can? Just turn back the time. Let's do it once for the fun of it, I just wanna have a taste of that moment.

Baby, thank you for liking it. You're the first guy I do so much handicraft for, I'll just kill you if you don't appreciate them. Baby, I don't ask anything in return from you 'cause I know you're busy in camp and you rarely have anytime. Even though it's something you BOUGHT for me, I'll like them as hell! Like the necklace and Domo(:
&All I ask for that you'll appreciate my gifts from the bottom of my heart, even though it's something small.
&&Don't doubt, 'cause I really like you from the beginning(:

I love you baby, your companion for the past 6 days was awesome!
Indeed a fairytale and now back to the real world!
(hug!)

#252.

2010-02-16T01:23:00.002+08:00

Baby gave me that as Vday gift. I dislike Domokun actually, it was an inside joke between us♡
I cried and laughed out damn loud immediately after seeing this, omg cute la! TOUCHED!
I love my awesome baby!

Just came back from baby's friend's place.
I reckon it's their thingy to have this visiting, envy that they are still strong together since secondary school.
Home early 'cause baby think that I wanna sleep already when I don't wanna leave 'cause leaving his side feels so weird, like what I'm experiencing now. At least Domokun is here with me(:
I miss him a lot actually. Even though I was pissed earlier, I still miss him. I'm weird.

CNY is killing me, made me cough and almost sick and now made me used up all my energy just to SHIT! Omg, I didn't know shitting was so much work! Tsk.
Later today's another day. I can foresee us chilling at home, better than nothing! HAHA!

Think I'll find something small to fill my grumbling stomach before I sleep(:

&Domokun camwhore too!

#250. Vday and CNY.

2010-02-14T14:47:00.006+08:00

My CNY eve was nothing special, just the usual from the day I was born till now.
Bugis with baby, Alvin and Bestie. The guys went for arcade and the ladies went for manicure. I left earlier and before bestie's nails were done, damn long man.
Back to baby's and home in the evening for reunion dinner.
Movies at night with baby and Alvin, Percy Jackson & the Lightning Thief was still alright.

14 Feb 2010.
This date's somehow special this year.
Before today, I was actually more of like excited and looked damn forward to today but when it's here I'm ain't as excited anymore.
Why?
'Cause all the shops are closed, nowhere to go. How am I suppose to spend my Vday.

CNY, it was pretty mundane.
Spent it at home cause granny's here and everybody came here.
Ang bao ang bao! I don't have much relatives so I won't recieve as much as you people do. My mum's thai so I won't get anything from her side, at least her friends would give? HAHA.
&Baby's family can't even celebrate CNY this year so no ang bao from that side either. LOL.

Vday today too!
My first ever Vday with someone special, only that my date hadn't wake up. (emo, please take extra note that it's already 3pm now.)
Spammed his phone with my messages and calls but no replys. Gonna spam again when I finish blogging.
&Now, where can we go? Wanna go for picnic but plan failed 'cause we didn't buy anything ingredients and it's pretty late anyway.
Ah, would crack my brain later. Movies? There's 3 Vday movies this year anyway.

(side track, he just woke up. YAY! My date's awake and apparently he still haven't gotten used to Satio. keep sending me BLANK messages. HAHA! That dumb dumb.)

Today's Sunday and baby's booking in on Tuesday night.
2 more days to spend QUALITY time with him before he goes for his field camp and me going back to work. Fuck.

The sound of Mahjong, the time for gambling.
&&Any party people partying tomorrow? Clubbing sessions needed!

Happy Lunar New year and Happy Valentine's day to everybody reading this now(:

XOXO.

#249. Happy CNY and VALENTINE EVE!

2010-02-13T00:08:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging at midnight right now, gonna sleep after I hang my clothes to dry(:

Baby's sweet last evening.
He surprised me under my house. Yes, he booked out and didn't tell me.
Aww, my sweet baby(: I do love sweet surprises but I hate it when either of us get annoyed.
Baby, thanks for the necklace!

Stayed over at baby's. He left his house for jogging session with army people early in the morning, leaving me alone at his house with his mum and brother. Like I've twitted, I feel like a wife waiting for her husband to be back. Although it's boring but still I love the feeling(:

After resting and etc, headed over to Chinatown to meet van to get some shopping done. At least we're shopping with aim. Within seconds after I step into the shop, I instantly saw a corset which looked freaking awesome and fall in love with it.
Both me and bestie got 2 piece each within 30 minutes, satisfied!
Headed over to cineleisure for baby's share of retail therapy, Fred Perry and bought a top for himself. Another 30 minute! A day of 30 minute shopping experience. HAHA!

Baby left to meet his bunk mates at boat quay and Van left to meet her friends at Yio Chu Kang, leaving me going home alone :(
Hopefully both of them could wake up in time. Manicure at 2pm (Bugis) and hair cut at 4pm (FEP)
Reunion dinner at my place.

Here comes the horrible period of the year.
At least tomorrow's Vday, so it'll be a wee bit better(:

#246. Imma weird girlf(:

2010-02-10T23:02:00.003+08:00

Just confessed to my own boyfriend that I miss him, again!
hahahaha!
Busy lil'kid, I really miss him. Fuck army seriously, I feel so damn empty without him on weekdays. I think he'll feel the same damn way too, HAHA!

Hey, I know that you're stalking my blog! You cute stalker(:
Just to tell you again, I love you and I always you. Looking back 8 months ago and now, I still feel as awesome and still can't believe that I had someone who truely loved me and fall head over heels for me like I did for him(:

Having you was the most awesome-est thing that happened in my life.
There's nothing better♥

2010-02-09T21:13:00.002+08:00

Satio was awesome!
Okay whatever, I still love my BB(:

Was talking to twinny earlier today and the moment we finish our conversation, NAFA emailed me informing me about the audition date and my English placement test.
Damn, everything will happen on the 23rd and 24th of this month. Omg, so needa start training and everything shit.
I need to start creating my dance for the solo presentation.

1/2 hour of ballet dance class.
1/2 hour of modern dance class.
1 1/2 hour of solo .
10-15 minute interview.

I'm going crazy soon!
Shall be more hardworking and look up for dance movements and start practicing. I need help though, anybody? (:
&Shall work hard for this opportunity. It's been awhile since I've did something I really want. Root for me okay? (:

Singyee jiayou!
Time to study and work hard!

I love love love baby!
I-miss-my-boyf syndrome's back again :D

#244. The weekend update.

2010-02-08T00:10:00.002+08:00

Friday.
Met Priya and headed over to NAFA for final application.
Diploma for dance(: Hopfully it'll be good! Shall wait patiently for their call/mail/email regarding the interview date and etc! I better start training already but my lazy arse boyf refuse to accompany meeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Tsk.
Anybody wanna go swimming on weekdays with me?

Met up the makan people in the evening. Yes, I'm hell late!
Sakura and updating each other non stop! Hella awesome!
Successful and all and I thank these people for coming and I appreciate it a LOT!

Organiser, me, left early as baby was getting impatient :(
Cabbed over to his place, left my ultra heavy and bulky bag and headed over to Clarke Quay for awesome clubbing session!
The crowd was alright but they still sucked. The choice of music by the DJ was making me go WHAT THE FUCK cause that night sucked like hell and I'm really pissed.
Well, I've decided to give Rebel a second chance. Maybe 'cause it's Friday? I don't know.
ANYWAY! Clubbed with awesome people(:
I clubbed damn hard that night, mainly I was really pissed when the music was like trance and shit and other random reason.

Okay, I still love reggae!

Left early too as baby was getting real tired and my feet was hurting from walking all day.
&Baby said that real music starts at 3am. Tsk.

Saturday.
Woke up, wash up and headed over to Queensway Tea Garden to do ONE birthday party for them. How good can I be? HAHA!
Baby waited for me to finish work. AWWWWWWWWWWWW!
DAMN irritated by the party customer, kinda lose it and raised my voice.

WHATEVER

Headed over to Paragon after work. That KID kept wanting to change phone.
Walk around and wanted to shop but can't seem to find anything he like.

(MIND BLANK) (SKIP!)

Sunday.
BABY BOUGHT NEW PHONE!
Sony Ericsson Satio(: Currently I'm using it on the weekdays and he'll use it on the weekends. I'll see my BB on weekends then(:
That kid:D
The first thing he mention when he wake up was "I wanna change phone."
CUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTE!

Yes, I'm very well aware that I'm working today.
The ONLY factor that I didn't go it's because it was our 8th! I tried to request it but still wasn't given. And having the mentality of "My pay would increase only if I DYED back my hair color."
You know what, fuck that.
Appearance is important but to me I don't care, people LOVE my color even the customers!
Seriously, for fuck I want to waste my time at work and pissing baby off and getting FUCKING PATHETIC pay.
Some random person texted me saying that I WAS BEING IRRESPONSIBLE! Now I ask you, who made me this way? You people hold my pay and refuse to increase it and expect me to work like a fucking dog? My pay was way less than the youngsters you people hired.

&Yea, I'm not afraid to admit that I don't feel like working. Period.

TIME TO FIND ANOTHER HIGHER PAYING JOB!
It's doesn't matter about the job's stability.

Monday.
It's only midnight now.
Working at 9 later on, bet things will change now.
But, FUCK IT!

NIGHTY PEOPLE!
or Good Morning(:

#243 The eight.

2010-02-07T00:02:00.001+08:00

Baby baby♥
Damn, I still can't use your lappy to type, waaaaaaaaaay too big. TSK ( :

Baby, happy 8th!
I know you've seriously suffered a lot by tolerating all my non stop crapass nonsense. HAHA! I love you, thank you for tolerating my everything.
Even though I'm not as perfect, you still treat me like one.

Baby! It's been 8 months since the day we started.
Like I've said here before, we started out tough but we managed to make it through!

&&Thank you for trying to satisfy all my wants but still I don't want to use up all your money(:
I love how you tried to pamper me and showering me with lots of love recently :D
I really wonder, what I would do without you being my side. But I know I don't have to worry a single shit cause you'll always be there for me.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOOOOOOOOOOU!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

#241. The first Friday of the new month!

2010-02-05T00:54:00.003+08:00

I would be . . .

- Collecting my O level cert from SEAB.
- Accompany Priya to HMI for her to apply for that school.
- Head down to Bencoolen to apply for NAFA.
- Head back to BM to meet the makan people.
- Clementi Woods Sakura for dinner.
- Meet baby back at his house.
- Head out for clubbing session <3

Busy Friday!
Okay, I'm pretty much excited!
WEEKEND!

#240. Good girl(:

2010-02-04T00:05:00.002+08:00

After an ENTIRE month of not clubbing, the good girl's gonna be out to partying this month!
Okay, I'll seriously be broke to do so la. Shall save!

February.
Hopefully this month would be better. Hopefully we'll finally really spend the day seven together this time. I'll seriously kill that fucker who would be causing baby to stay in.

Chinese New Year and V day(:
My first ever V day with my special someone(:

And now, the time for the golden question!
LOOKING FOR PARTY PEOPLE THAT PARTIES ON THE WEEKENDS!
Catch us on weekends! HAHA!

&&I heard baby's friend is stalkingreading my blog(:
Hello Stephanie! Anyway, cheer up alright! SMILEEEEEEEEEEEE!
:DDD

#239. I miss . . .

2010-02-03T18:57:00.004+08:00

I miss the old BM people that I used to work with 5 years ago.
I miss my twin.
I miss my babylove.

&&I DON'T miss Van and never will, HAHA!

Baby said that he might not be able to book out AGAIN this weekend 'cause some fucker lost something damn important which may lead to CONFINEMENT! Fucking hell.

&&&Shit, baby songs are stuck in my head already :(

Ignore me, I'm blogging rubbish!

&&&&&&&&&&&&

SING YEE IS LOOKING FOR PEOPLE TO SHOP WITH THIS WEEKEND! ANYBODY'S FREE? (:

#236. I miss you (:

2010-01-31T22:10:00.003+08:00

This weekend is so sucky.
Baby's not by my side this weekend, so not used to it :(
Used to spending my weekend slacking with baby.
&Now, I rather spend the day with him at the arcade. HAHA!

&I miss his bed(:

Poor baby, got sick and everything over the weekend.
(heart hurts!)

&&For 2010, I really really want to go back to school no matter what.
Baby said he'll think of something for me♥♥♥
Anyway, I've applied for NAFA dance. I should start jogging after being accepted to build up stamina :(
Wish me luck!

#233. Pizza.

2010-01-28T13:43:00.004+08:00

Randomly one day, I was looking at your back.
Thinking if you were to leave me someday,
I'll definitely give up on guys.
I think I'll go for girls then. Kidding.

#232. Another Wednesday, a not so normal day (:

2010-01-27T23:00:00.002+08:00

Baby night's out today(:
Seeing a dumb dumb face among people whom who were walking pass us, a face that I didn't for a day or two, instantly I know that I'm very well protected.

I love all the hugs, they makes me feel so safe. So damn safe being with you.
The most secured, loved hug I ever had felt.

The stupid actions we did together without planning but out of random.

♥♥♥

During that few short hours we've spent, it was awesome.
&There's no words for me to tell the entire world how much love I felt from you(:

Baby, we're going to be 8 months old soon.
&It felt like 8 years. There's no one else understand me the way you do. Like you read me inside out.

I feel so emotional today.
I almost teared infront of you :(

Lastly, I love you.

#230. BABYLOVE (:

2010-01-25T00:35:00.002+08:00

It was really rare that he's out on weekdays(:
It was really awesome. Even though it was the same old usual stuffs like chilling and doing nothing, I feel LOVE the entire time when we're together for that day.

That bus journey to Bugis was great. You're my entertainment the entire journey, your lousy singing and the hugs and the kisses.
&I love laughing at you(:

I love that feeling I've gotten from you.
Smiling at each other and say nothing.

DOMOKUN ~~♥
(:

#228. I love . . .

2010-01-23T23:30:00.001+08:00

I love your smile when I do stupid things or actions.
CUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTE (:

&&I just love you (:
I'm blessed to have you ((:

#227. One word to describe word.

2010-01-22T22:21:00.003+08:00

SUCKY.

Was ordered around and felt like a dog. Hello? am I a STAR or a CREW to you guys? God.

Won't be meeting baby for the next days, shan't disturb him so much. Will send him love once in awhile, hopefully he won't find me too irritating!
I want my boyf back, sigh. I miss him hell lots.
Where did the monster bring my boyf to?

Blond blond blond (:
Short hot blond or dolly long blond?

Han : They allow meh? (to dye blond)
Me : Do I look like I fucking care anymore?

#226. ♡♥♡♥

2010-01-21T23:05:00.003+08:00

I've been meeting baby at a rather different place.
Baby's grand dad passed away :(
It wasn't a good thing but I love his cute smile that I saw today, it was awesome. I missed that smile since the day we fought about shittest thing ever.

Baby baby baby! I love love love love love love love you!

One, facebook is lagging.
Two, DAMN I'm working tomorrow. Don't likeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Three, I really really need to dye my hair! I see black hair already!

#225. Regretfully sorry.

2010-01-20T00:00:00.002+08:00

I knew this was coming but I knew that it'll be so damn bad.
Within a month, two major quarrels. I know we don't like it.
To me, it was for me to learn more through these mistake so that I can be better. I don't what it's to you but hopefully you'll forgive me somehow.

Blame me on being over sensitive and not being too sensitive to you.

I still wanna see you later on.
&I swear nothing of last night would happen again.

Forgive me, this is killing me.

Dear god, please do not take away my only source of living.
The source that kept me breathing till now and my hope.

#224. Going blonde(:

2010-01-19T01:04:00.004+08:00

Okay, I'm like getting addicted to sleeping late now 'cause it's 1am right now! Oh dear.
Like spent the night talking to Ady(:
She's a cool person that I've met at Taka baby fair aug/sep 2009. (Hadda say something about her in case she really stalk me here =.=)

Anyway, I'm like up awake still when I'm having a brunch date with Huifang later on.
Bestie wanna go discovery centre tomorrow, tsk.

Schedule for today is brunch with Huifang followed by discovery centre with bestie, praying at bugis and dye BLONDE!
Then baby's gonna book out during evening and meeting him for movie(: He wanted to watch on 'cause he rarely gets the chance of watching it on weekdays with cheaper pricing-.- Weird much.
&I get to see his dumb face till Wednesday(:
Will tell why other day.

Did I say I'm gonna dye blonde? YES!
I'm gonna blonde my hair and shock people with it. I'm weird, I like to do things with my hair. I get bored of my hair style and the color easily recently.
Or it is because I didnt do anything with it in preparation of the new year? I used to do my hair for the new year though. HAHA!
And no, I'm not trying to be like unsingaporean. I dye because I wanna be much more unique! Do you see people in Singapore dye blonde? All I see was red, brown or gold. That's like so lian-ish and eww!

&Now I am thinking whether to go for a short blonde, meaning that I have to take out my extensions and definitely cheaper , or long blonde?
Short blonde looked HOT while long blonde, cute?
(:

And which blonde?
pic one, Tila tequila's blonde.
pic two, Paris Hilton's blonde.
pic three, Lady Gaga's blonde.

Oh my god, can't wait to see how I'd look like(:
I bet I'll look even more doll-ish(:

&Now, what time should I wake up later? Hmmm.

(PS : I'm dying the entire hair, not highlighting!)

#223. A fast one.

2010-01-18T01:19:00.002+08:00

It's like 0130 right now and I'll be killed when baby knew that I'm still awake at this timing.
Well well, it's been awhile since I stayed up this late! About a month or so? HAHA!

&&I'm like listening to club mixes right now. Okay, seriously need some club exercise soon!
It's healthy you know, as long as you don't drink, drank and get drunk (: Well, basically I get high with the music without the alcohols! Believe me (:

My dear BFs, phuture/powerhouse/DBL O soon alright!

Anyway, wanted to blog tomorrow via my sister's computer but somehow magically my lappy is working PERFECTLY fine right now so I'll make use of the moment!

&I hate the fact that you're going back in and I can't get to spend the following weekend with you due to work.
Nah, not gonna skip work on Sunday already. At least go for once, for the sake of it.

I realised that we're unlike other couples, for they can sit around and talk shits all day.
Yes, we don't talk much but still I do love the silence.
That silence often led to looking at each other and just feeling the love between us.
Always, I asked you to talk while on the phone 'cause this kinda silence is horrible as I can't see you and tend to feel super insecure.

On weekdays, I feel so damn empty. It's like I never had you and you're on my mind 24/7 that kinda horrible feeling. Or somewhat like that.
When it's finally weekend and knowing that I'll see you makes me all excited and happy, something like a little kid want candies BADLY and finally gets it. I only feel secured love from you in that short pathetic 2 to 3 days.
A year plus more and I don't have to miss you in that way! (:

Baby, jiayou! I'll be cheering you on 24/7
Baby, SMILE! Please don't keep the stress to yourself when everything that is happening now. Remember, I'm always here for you to talk to and make you feel better (:
I love you baby, hell lots!

(PS : I'm not telling you to keep up the silence on weekends la :DD)
(P/PS : Did the title tells you that it's gonna be a short one? Make it a not so fast one. HAHA!)

#219. Once upon a time.

2010-01-14T22:49:00.002+08:00

A couple of days back, a rider whom I see for four years throughout my working days at mac told me that I was becoming pettier by the day.

Comparing pictures from 4 years ago to now, I admit I do change but I don't know about getting pettier part. (HAHA)
In terms of appearance and personality, I did change a lot over the years. Whether it's in a good way or a bad way.
I grew up. Become a lady. Stop the gangster-ish. Standing up for myself. Change my overall appearance. More sociable as to compare to before with my darn black face.

I change as people come and go in my life.
&I thank them for making my life as it is now (:

&The most change I see in myself was that I "went after" a guy whom I really really like despite that I was feeling lousy and feels "ugly" during that period of time.
Yes, that's what I mean by I EARN myself a boyfriend and still loving him(:

Boyfriend story some other day!

I'm so thick skin♥♥♥

&&Bestie wanna be my wedding planner =.=
&&&I read up my sign couple days back and it says that job opportunities would come knocking on my door this year and it did! Job called me today (: HAHA!

#218. Random update.

2010-01-13T13:28:00.005+08:00

My lappy is seriously pissing me off badly and I have to use my sister's pathetic computer.
Shall wait for baby to settle my darling lappy :(

Nothing else to blog.
Lousy life.

&&Presenting you my new love (:
Baby loves it too! HAHA!

#216.Love(:

2010-01-11T22:49:00.003+08:00

Baby, thanks for that hug last night before you leave. Though it's after reading my blog apparently. HAHA!
I love that warm hug from you.
Strong and firm. That confirm the love you had for me, it was real and for nothing else.
It didn't mean that I've doubt your love previously la, HAHA!

Result was sucky anyway.
Well, already expected that. Hmm, so what's next for me.
Will try out MDIS and Laselle, checking up their webbie soon! After the damn connection is better, I hate slow connections like what I'm relying on now. Fucking hell.

Will blog better soon(:

Turning blond soon(:

#214. Oh crap.

2010-01-09T23:02:00.003+08:00

People's been sick lately, guess I've gotten the virus as well.

Giddiness, indigestion, the feeling of puking and low blood.
I should've place my low blood period together with alcohol today, heard that people could drink more. Kidding.

Fucking hell, how to work?

&&After meeting that clubber, I feel like clubbing hell lots! Dammit.

#213. You.

2010-01-08T21:11:00.008+08:00

After a long and horrible day at work, all I wanted was to see you and get hugs from you. Even just for a bit. I don't care if I'm not gonna get enough sleep or how I'm suppose to go home after that, I just want to see you.

&I know that you're tired and I'm not gonna annoy you any further.

Another horrible working tomorrow, hopefully I'll get a chance of seeing you.
I really need that hug.

*****************************************************

I was reminiscing the past, seven months ago when WE started.
It just put smiles on my face without fail.

From the way you look at me and to the way you control my emotions, it's just an awesome piece of memory.

I've lost that confidence lately, I admit to that.
Not in us but in myself.
It feels like I don't deserve someone like you, just suddenly.
I suck as a person, let alone a girlf.

Low self-esteem is what people call this shit.
&Shit happens.

I still love you as much and way more (:

#212. Happy Seven (:

2010-01-07T22:53:00.003+08:00

07062009 was when we started.
That was like seven months ago *thinking back*.

I was telling someone else about how we started 7 months back, smiles just appeared on my face. Telling people how special you are to me.
Even though it started rocky, but we did survive after all my nonsense and those pointless arguments(: Well, not exactly pointless. It made us understand each other much more. We're new in this and we're still learning as the days pass by.

I'm gonna wait for that time to come, the time whereby we officially had to face shits and spend our remaining lives together.

Baby, I believe deeply in you. So, please let me continue believing you(:
Doing things which I'll get paranoid easily is seriously killing me.
I love you, till the extend of dying if I lose you. I almost did and I never want it to happen again. I'll be your perfect girlfriend someday, just wait and see(:

SEVEN JUNE TWO THOUSAND AND NINE, the love story of the Dumbest frog and the Stupidest pig♥

#210. TwoThousandTen Resolution!

2010-01-05T12:44:00.002+08:00

I know I'm a little late making my resolution only now(:
Well, here goes!

Keep myself occupied with things to do everyday.
#1 I'll make myself to go back to school again. Result's next week so I'll decide where to go then.
#2 Make myself exercise at least twice a week. Be it dancing, clubbing, jogging, swimming, cycling.
#3 Make time for people especially my two BFs after point #1 came true.
#4 Seriously SAVE UP!
#5 Change my low paying job asap.
#6 Stop pissing baby off especially when point #1, #3 and #5 come true.
#7 Show lesser black face especially to people whom I've just met ):
#8 Stop talking about ME and be more understanding towards baby(:

&&AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW, I feel so much in love with baby again.
Feels like honeymoon period all over. Or is it me that made him say all of these?
Nehmind, as long he passed his SOC with my love ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡.

#209. First day of schools.

2010-01-04T12:33:00.002+08:00

Well, it's not the first day of school for me. I've stopped school for about a year now(:
Yes, it's not something to be proud of. HAHA!

Results would be out in about a week time. Actually the date wasn't confirm yet but SEAB says that it'll be between 11Jan to 13Jan.
Hopefully the result would be better than before but I totally have no confidence that I'll pass. Anyway, I won't mind RP. Seriously, I'd rather study any subject that is within my power now than do NOTHING everyday (:
MDIS or Art school? I'm hoping for Art school(:
Baby says that he would want me to work full time if I fail again ):

Why Sinagpore's so DEAD!
To hell with the "must have cert" system.

HELLO VAN!

#204. 2 oh oh 9

2009-12-30T20:09:00.005+08:00

Two thousand and nine is about to end.
12months of the year passed by just like this, feels like January 2009 was just yesterday.
I had both a horrible and an enjoyable year this year.
Losing people and gaining people.
Losing trust and gaining them.

I remember having a roller coaster relationship earlier, everything just suck.
After working for 4 years in my comfort zone, I've finally took a step out and learn something new. I've found my love at my new environment too and we're still counting till now (:

credits to huimin and etc.

I've stopped schooling this year, and realised that working life wasn't as easy and wanting to study damn badly now. At least I got a year for me to kinda sort out what am I actually interested in.
I've cut my hair real SHORT earlier for the first time of my 18 years living.
I regretted much.

I've finally turned 18 this September.
Started drinking and pubbing and clubbing. No, I'll never start smoking. HAHA!
I've saw the ugly side of the people whom I used to keep around me and met awesome people as well.

Promoted just a while ago.
Got to conclude that the people in the higher level are just simply backstabbers. It's so freaking hard to find a good friend in there.
Everybody's leaving and nothing feels the same anymore.

Things still stays the same are still my job and my bestie.
&&The greatest thing about 2009 was I've found and earn myself a PERMANENT boyfriend(:
&&&Boyfriend and Bestie was my most important people in my life now and it'll stay this way ((:

I gotta admit, I do miss my green friend :(

#203. Fcuk.

2009-12-29T23:20:00.000+08:00

Work is the most hated thing in my entire life, I bet others felt the same way too.
Fuck work man seriously. Ever since promoted, I've to really commit my time now. But you know what, I'm tired of trying to commit.
I've to even entertain last minute attachment, why the fuck I can say no that day. Thanks to my darling managers whom always make me feel guilty.

Work, it's taking away both of my BFs from me.
I hate this shit man.
I have totally no time for them, for myself and my sleep is shortened too.

&For fuck I sacrifice my two MOST important people in my life for some fucking pathetic pay I received. I work more than the money paid.
Seriously isn't worth it.
I want my friends more than I want the job. I'd rather to be spending my money than earning them.
If the job is still taking too much of my time, I think it's really time to say bye bye.

Sorry van.
Sorry baby.

#202. Mixed.

2009-12-28T23:03:00.002+08:00

When there's people talking behind my back and not straight up to my face, there's still someone whom still care to share with me and tell me so that I can improve myself.
&I do appreciate that. So thank YOU, I really appreciated that move (:

So can we have that time to sit down and talk about these shit? Over dinner or something. It's your choice though (:
&&You know I'm talking about you.

Work's sucha bitch.

Tsk tsk, I'm gonna work at QW again tomorrow. So damn last minute, Oh wells (:

Baby, sorry being so paranoid over these shit.
Well, thank you for bothering to explain(in a super long story way, haha!) and telling me.
I do believe in what you're doing.
&Baby, it's okay that you're not getting me anything. I don't mind doing or making or getting anything for you as long as you do appreciate them, 'cause they contains my heart.
&&I shall wait till the day you finally gonna show me your surprises. You owe me 2 surprises already (:

I love you dumb dumb (:

#201. Paranoid.

2009-12-27T22:52:00.002+08:00

Just too damn paranoid now and hell lots of feelings inside.
I felt damn lousy right now. Hopefully I'll dump this feeling soon before I proceed to the new year.

&I just realise that you dont even know shit about me.

#200. Love.

2009-12-26T00:18:00.000+08:00

Happy 200th baby (:

#199. Merry Christmas (:

2009-12-25T23:51:00.003+08:00

Merry Christmas to all!
&It wasn't exactly very merry for me. Still felt damn down, think too paranoid.
All these feeling aren't meant to be shared but I feel like telling someone. I know it'll cause more problems. It's just me, sigh.

But I don't really feel good.
Sigh, see what happens tomorrow. I know I've upset my bestie as well :(

I don't feel much from you anymore :(

#197. I just love you.

2009-12-23T21:16:00.002+08:00

Do you know how much love I received from you through the phone? It's seriously a lot. It's that love that hold me together when you're not beside me.
Sigh, if only I can choose when I can work.
It's gonna get more hectic as time goes by.

Working in the morning (again), at Queensway.
Pray hard that I can punch out after the dine in there.

I want to be in my baby's zone!

&I really need to shop for Christmas present, feel bad that I'm receiving them. HAHA!

#195. God dammit.

2009-12-21T23:57:00.003+08:00

Due to baby's not feeling very well, he slept early and thus I didn't get a chance to actually talk to him :(
Been out till kinda late enough recently, making almost no chance of talking to him. I realised and regretted. I must start going home early so today won't repeat ever again.
&Hopefully you're feeling well now, after a good night sleep. I'm worried :(

I miss his voice, I miss his love.
I feel pampered even though we're just talking through the phone.
&&I miss you most definitely.

Thank god for the festive season!
I can see you earlier(:

P/S : The bitch is back in business(:

#194. Baby (:

2009-12-20T00:05:00.005+08:00

To Koh Wen Bin a.k.a Ngor Sing Yee's Baby,

Baby, this weekend is coming to an end soon.
24hours per day is seriously not enough for us, this suck seriously.
Like I say, how I wish I can don't work and money to just fall down from the sky.
I'll just take it as saving up for 3 years later alright? Haha!

Baby, I'm sorry that even though I'm finally back but I'm still like busy. Especially with this fucked up work.
Just bare with it okay? Like what you've say, we still got forever to spend with each other (:

I love how you gave in to my stupidity.
I love how you make random promises.
&I love how you protect me from injuring myself.

After 2 weeks of separation, hugging you never feel as good as it did for these two days.
Aww, I really missed you too damn much.

One more round to go!
Your 1 month of army shits, tsk.
HAHA!

I LOVE YOU BABY!
"I love you" can't really relate how I feel towards you.
It's beyond love, a stronger love(:

From Ngor Sing Yee a.k.a Koh Wen Bin's Mrs koh (:

#193. I'm home!

2009-12-18T13:23:00.002+08:00

After 12 hours of train ride, 6 hours of waiting for the bloody plane just because of arriving Bangkok early and taking Singapore cab from Changi Airport to Woodlands/Marsiling, I'M FINALLY HOME! and blogging in my room and sitting on my comfy bed :DD
Okay, I reach home last night instead.

I'll be happy to be home until later today.
Gonna go out and see those typical Singaporeans again. Ah, I missed laughing at them. HAHA!

Okay, Out with Bestie after she's back from cruise(WAITING!) & meet baby and POWERHOUSE!
HAHA! Gonna go prepare! BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

#191. YIPPEE YAY!

2009-12-16T15:08:00.003+08:00

I'll be on the plane home tomorrow afternoon.
& I'm leaving my granny's today, taking train to Bangkok. Tsk, why don't my parents opt for plane instead.

I'm miss baby oh damn much now.
2 More days! YAY!

#190. Last post from Thailand.

2009-12-15T12:11:00.002+08:00

This is my last post from Thailand. I'll be setting of tomorrow evening to Bangkok.
The connection here is gonna be terminated soon, this connection is a temporary one. Sigh.
Oh wells, here comes Friday! Would be looking damn forward to it. HAHA!

&This is true today(:

Your Love Horoscope

This is a time period Virgo, where you may be able to get exactly what you want when it comes to love. Whether you are single or attached, this is one of those energy frames where if you can say it then you can have it, so don't hesitate to voice your desires and you can get whom you want. Chances are you'll be hearing news that make not only your heart go pitter pat but the person of your desire as well. You may have been having challenges lately in terms of being considered domineering or pushy, but today events in the past will finally begin to make more sense to you, and you will be able to have many of your romantic goals realized in the time to come.

#189. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE!

2009-12-14T10:47:00.003+08:00

Happy 19th bestie!
I'm like some crazy arse going around the cyber world to say that, just because I wasn't around in Singapore. Tsk,

&&I was busy doing that photo, LOLS!

Bestie, thanks for being there all the time for me and hear my whines and complains even though when you're actually down as well(:
&&Sorry for not being there for your birthday for like the past 2 years. HAHA!
2 years and counting! Heh.

(p/s : I just realised that the background color was ugly =.=)

3more days to reach singapore and 4 more days to see both my BFs!

#187. Just another post.

2009-12-12T11:49:00.004+08:00

Wassup!
I'm like back from a day of useless trip to Phu Kradueng National Park.
Try not bathing for almost 38hours and climbing a mountain that is worth of 8km walk!

I've got nothing much to say about the trip other than it's like freaking tough!
Imagine to walk so much and leg cramps and saw nothing in the end.

We're gonna reach there together, are we?

I feel so damn insecure that you don't feel it there anymore.

#184. From the most bottom of my heart.

2009-12-09T20:23:00.001+08:00

I'M SINCERELY SORRY!
for everything that happened.

Baby, a week more!
Please try and bare with it.
I love you no matter what, cause you're my babylove(:

#183. Sigh sigh sigh.

2009-12-07T10:57:00.005+08:00

Came across the above picture while looking for Van's cake.
See, even my lappy missed him. HAHA!

Today's day 7 of the month December :DD

HAPPY HALF A YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABYLOVE!
I love you, I love you and I love you.

Sigh.
Baby, I'm sorry but please do understand.
This period may be tough but all we have to do is to be strong!
Baby, I'll make it up to you when I come back okay?

10 more days then till FOREVER!

I love you.

#182. Worsen.

2009-12-06T10:44:00.004+08:00

I feel like this whenever we fight

Sigh.

I'd rather have bad time with you, than good times with someone else.
I'd rather e beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself.
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart.
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (:

#181. Still bored.

2009-12-05T20:40:00.003+08:00

I really hate it here, practically doing shit over here.
I could have been by baby's side.
I don't get it, why must we stay for 2 weeks. I should've insisted coming for a week only. Fucking hell.

Without baby around, I feel so alone.
Somehow, I couldn't get baby.
There's this damn feeling which I don't know to express them, it feels like baby's wasn't there anymore.
I don't know. Maybe things happened recently, I know it sucked but how I wish baby can get over it soon.

Selfish as it may seem, but I need his attention on me again.
Sorry.

Insects!
Itchy itchy scratch scratch :(

I miss my baby, damn much!

#180. Posting in Thailand!

2009-12-04T19:32:00.006+08:00

Hello(:
I'm finally online after arriving at Thailand for 2days (:
Thanks to my aunt who reactivated her modem just for me! Well, how can I survive without being online? &I have to pay her back 30bucks after I'm back in Singapore, tsk tsk.
Oh! Instead of texting me, you guys can always find me on Facebook or Msn or even drop me an email(:

It's 830pm now in Singapore (730pm in Thailand), I'm sitting in a corner with my lappy and blasting music away, of course with my awesome earpiece.
It's pretty dark right now and from my view to outside of the house was pretty scary, seeing people and dogs walking pass and literally popping into my view. Tsk.
&A dog just appeared =.=

Got myself a new toy on my first day stay at granny's.
My new Samsung ES10 cammy! &It's fucking pretty in WHITE!
I swear that it's freaking CHEAP! It's only like 11o sing dollars(2,590 Baht)! &&Sony Cams were selling at less than 150 sing dollars!
I should've bring more money! Oh wells.
Gonna hit the Flea market tomorrow! Cheap Clothes. HAHA!

Baby, I'm really sorry that I couldn't be there for you when it happened.
How I wish that I'm still in Singapore, by your side. To support you, to be there when you broke down.
Baby, I feel bad that I'm actually enjoying here while your suffering inside.
Baby, I CAN feel your pain inside you. But please be strong.
Continue to hang on till I'm back, back by your side again.
Baby, you said that I'm your pillar. &You only fall when I fall. But I didn't, so you can't fall and break down now.
I know how sad you're feeling now but please cheer up a little, I know you can do it!
I'm always there for you mentally.
I'm just a couple of buttons on your phone away (:

Baby, I love you.
&I miss you dearly.

#178. Bye!

2009-12-02T08:52:00.003+08:00

Leaving for airport soon.

FYI, I'm visiting my Granny at Thailand!
So here comes cheap deals and a getaway from Singapore. I'll try to online if possible (:

Baby, Take good care of yourself.
Don't tired yourself out okay? If you fall ill, who's gonna take care of your parents?

I love you baby, and I'll miss you damn much!
Thank god there's a thing call PHONE!

Bye Singapore, and hello Thailand (:

:(

&&Bestie, take care too!

#176. Babylove.

2009-11-30T00:01:00.003+08:00

Baby, please be strong. Your dad won't be happy if he sees you like this.
I know this is tough for you to accept but still you life must go on.
Like I'd said, spend more time with him and he'll be happy enough. Respect his decision that he had decided years ago, he would want you to do that.

Baby, no matter what happen please do not do anything reckless.
Please stop cursing yourself as well, I don't want that to happen to you.

Baby, I'm always there for you.
No matter how far I am, I'm always a phone call away okay?
I love you baby, how I wish I don't have to leave. How I wish I can be there with you through these times.

#174. Shagged.

2009-11-28T03:20:00.002+08:00

Blogger's giving shit now, I can't upload my photos.

After talking to Sandy yesterday at work, I realised that I did not weigh my priorities.
Flexibility (:
Glad that I've chosen to seek her opinion first before really deciding on my next career. Like she'd told me about a year back that if it's about my next adventure in life, I can always speak to her. After all, she's been through all.

Clubbed on Thursday night at DBL O. Basically only baby and I went.
When van says that the alcohol there was cheap, yep she meant CHEAP! I couldn't believe my eyes that 10 bucks could almost get me wasted when I normally spend nearing 200 bucks for a bottle of Martell before getting really wasted.
&Thanks to the Tequila shots.
&&Hurray for my parents knowing that I drank. Fuck it.

Flying off on Wednesday! Anybody want me to get them anything? HAHA!
&I've left today and tomorrow to be with baby.
Even though he's sleeping behind me now, I missed him already. Yes, I miss him all the time. HAHA!

At least there's a good news? My new uniform would be here 2 weeks later, so it'll be just nice to wear them after I come back (:

#172.愛，很簡單

2009-11-26T00:37:00.002+08:00

Whenever people around me or people whom met you before me told me that you're a very good guy and etc, I feel very happy that I've found myself a guy whom I can really love and trust.
&I felt blessed that I've known you and you're mine now (:

Baby, I love you!
Huu huu. HAHA!

&&Lets make this weekend super memorable before I leave for 2 weeks alright?

#171. Short one.

2009-11-25T00:28:00.003+08:00

1) I wanna dye my hair BLOND! :DD
2) I want to do acrylic nails, manicure.
3) I want the approval to go and make my new uniform. (HAHA!)
4) I didn't get to have dinner with my taka colleagues yesterday despite that I've finish work kinda early. Boos.

&&I'm suppose to be sleeping now, NIGHT PEOPLE!

#170. Just to tell you . . .

2009-11-24T00:36:00.005+08:00

After 7 days of heaven, I'm brought back to hell again.
Facing all those ugly sides of human nature and the irritating people. Yes, I'm not as perfect but still I expect people to treat me the way I treated them.

Men.
They are insensitive animals.
Men.
Your "jokes" ain't funny understand?
Men.
They are like this especially when they have no one to love or no one who love them.

This is funny and this is a FACT.
Before and when in a relationship, men always says that you're beautiful love you like hell. But after the relationship turned sour, men always treat you like fuck and calls you rubbish or ugly and even starts comparing you with other girls whom they think she's prettier.

Well at least I've found a guy who still loves me even all the craps and I do see US spending our remaining lives together.

&Just to tell you, I love you baby (:
KWB (:

&&&Working at Bishan tomorrow.
Helping out "Happy times with Ronald McDonald" there, guess they really liked us. HAHA!

#169. Feels like falling in love again.

2009-11-23T01:42:00.002+08:00

You're the reason why I'm falling in love with you again (:

One week of heaven had just ended, baby's booking in to his new camp in the morning later on.
Took an entire week of leave other than Saturday just to be with him.
It feels like there's more than 24 hours per day when we're together.
There's different type of dramas going on almost everyday.
Sick.
Tired.
Emotional.
Arguments.
But not forgetting laughing or smiling over our dumb acts :)

Feels great that I'm spending almost the entire week with you.
But it just ended like this. Why must time pass by so fast whenever you're having your block leave uh?

I miss my baby already.
&I'm sorry that I teared in front of you and made you cried too.
a year plus more and you're free from the clutches of the evil NS, and then you're mine and only mine! :DD

#166. My whines, my craps.

2009-11-20T02:39:00.002+08:00

It had been decided that both Fafa and I would be promoted on the 1st december, and the best part was I'm flying off to Thailand to visit grandma on the 2nd :(
&Lay hong says that We maybe going to make our NEW uniform on the first. Erm, wtf? How am I suppose to do that? Sigh, needa double check again.
&&I realised that I'm staying and Fafa's leaving and my last day of working with her was on the 1st. Let's make the remaining days together a pleasant one alright?
But still, I bet I'll visit her super often especially on weekends. HAHA!

Everybody's leaving and it feels weird staying there already. At least I still have Priya and Han uh?

To the young ones who went to K on Wednesday, sorry that I couldn't attend. Boyf's sick. sorry people, lets' organise another one alright?
&To Junsian, STFU. Period.

It's the twentieth! It'll be hectic for these two days.
STAR outing today, I don't know if I'm suppose to be excited or dreading it.
Mainly because it's gonna be 3am soon and I'm meeting dear Fafa at 930am, I can't really sleep :(
Hopefully the STARs are gonna be helpful, even though they're bitches in disguise as heard from Fafa.
Happy times with Ronald McDonald on the twenty-first, hopefully things won't go wrong.

AHH! I don't have anything to wear for the themed night!
ALOHA! Hawaiian.
Hopefully baby still have that shirt and I'll make something out of it somehow *cross fingers*
I don't even have flora tops!

Does Bugis street opens at 10am?

#165. With much love.

2009-11-19T23:29:00.003+08:00

Baby, dinner was simply awesome! You ordered my favorites even though you knew that I couldn't finish them anyways, but hey! I finished the entire stingray by myself, you did eat a little too I know. HAHA!
Baby, I hope we're fine now. &Hopefully no more arguments for the time being okay? It won't be over the same small little things anymore (:

Baby, I love you (:
&I love you beyond the reason why.

&&Stop looking at cars so much la, I really gonna be jealous over cars instead of females already =.=
Imagine a hot girl and a car in the picture.
He just tell me the CAR damn chio instead, WTF! HAHAHA!
Weird weird.

#163. Just dropping by, in the middle of the night.

2009-11-17T01:47:00.005+08:00

I should be sleeping but I'm here.
Pity baby, he's having headache for the entire of yesterday. Sigh.
Just hopefully he won't be sick if not it'll be just wasting his block leave, tsk.

I'm going gaga over black&gold stuffs recently, especially TOPS!
&I'm currently loving my new black&gold biker jacket (:
&&Been eying on heels and wedges nowadays too, dammit. Gonna collect a pair of wedge on Wednesday! I can wear it to club :DD
Well, that is if I'm still going. Ladies night and bet it'll be sardine packed :(
Oh well, I don't care. I'm still as satisfied even if I club on weekends instead (:

Hopefully this week would be awesome.
Spending good quality time with baby this entire week. Well, not exactly ENTIRE week.
Colleague outing and STAR outing, no time for makan session how :(

Oh oh, I took my portfolio about a year back and finally they called saying I can collect them. Hell yes, I wanna see my bridal shoot (:
&For the past one year, I've been turning down jobs from them because of mac, sigh. Hopefully there'll be more (:

It's two now, decided to sleep a little and sleep at baby's place later in the day and dinner buffet with the Taka colleagues at night (:

&&&On a random note, I WANT THAT HAIR COLOR! (points to the picture below)

Yes, I gaga-ing over her as well=.=
Bloody hell.

***********************************************

Just came back from baby's crib, he's still having that horrible headache :(
My heart was aching when I see him in pain and I could do nothing to make him feel better. Gonna spend tomorrow with him again instead, just hopefully he'll be better :)

Sigh, I should bathe and sleep already. Heading to his place again in the morning.
Good night world.

#162. Hate that I love you (:

2009-11-16T00:22:00.004+08:00

You know exactly what to do.

So that I can't stay mad at you for too long.
&I love you beyond a reason why.

#159. FRIDAY!

2009-11-13T00:58:00.002+08:00

It's Friday the thirteen!

Baby's booking in the afternoon and I'm working, greatest shit.
Sigh, not gonna meet him. Like he said, needa wait for another day to see each other again.
I miss him.

Oh crap, my mind's blank.
Blog again when I wake up, it's like 1am now and I'm suppose to rest early as requested by baby :(

Sorry baby, for opening an argument :(

#157. Mood-less.

2009-11-11T22:40:00.002+08:00

I'm losing blood from the exact moment I stood up after paper today, what a way to end O level. Tsk.
Menses made me paranoid, dammit.
&I'm trying my best to shuddup, I jump to conclusion easily during this period of every month.

Life's a bore.
When I'm not working, I'll be either at home or out with Van. Always trying to kill time on weekdays and praying that weekend come faster and time passes slowly.
I really need to go back and study but I'm afraid that there's no time for baby.
&I'm deciding between MDIS and NAFA/Laselle. I'd rather pay more to study something that interest me than pay for something I dislike.

I know baby don't agree with me, oh well.
See how things goes then (:

It's gonna be Thursday soon.
Yippee! Baby's booking out on Friday and 4 days leave :DD
Well, by right he'll be out for about 9 days? HAHA!

#153. The seventh of the month again!

2009-11-07T12:07:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 5th MONTH BABY!

Even though I typed wrongly that night, oops.

Like finally! The seventh of this month is on a weekend!
Stupid part is that we still send each other text message though we're just next to each other. Dammit, I didn't want to make it so obvious! I should've look at the time secretly =.=

Even though that night was special for us but it wasn't for you uh, losing at poker.
Tsk.

I love you baby, I love you and I love you :DD
My cutest babyboy (:

#152. Random post on random things.

2009-11-06T01:17:00.003+08:00

Baby booking out on Friday! Yippee, happy.
That dumb arse woke me up by scaring the shit out of me.
Sleeping over! It's been awhile since I slept over. Nope, my parents are still not gonna approve that.

Omg, I think I'm starting to slouch :(
People, please help me by telling me not to slouch! Be it sitting or standing or walking.
Tall girl slouching is an ugly sight. I feel ugly :(

Booked tickets for Thailand already, gonna go "home" to visit mummy's mummy.
Would be away from Singapore from 1st December till 17th December!
A random info. In case of confusion, Imma mixed blood, Imma half Thai kid. Ma aku Thai.
That's your first impression of me was a Malayu than a Cheena.

&I'm feeling both dreading and excited for this trip.
Excited because I get to buy DIRT CHEAP stuff like clothes! Planning to get a cammy there if there's good ones and find shoes or heels with my size and my preferred height! Singapore sucked much :(
Dreading because I'll be spending my 6th month anniversary there. God dammit!
I won't care how expensive the bill for the month can be, I'll still talk to baby! :DDD
Planned already (:

&&But before going back, I still want a makan supper session with the people I loved and treasure working with for the past 3 or 4 year

&&&MOST IMPORTANTLY! I want party and party before I leave. (hint hint)
HAHA!

#149. Just out of sudden.

2009-11-03T23:20:00.002+08:00

Just being random.
Suddenly typed Heroic Saga on youtube and watched these super memorable videos. Wanted to share it on facebook, should I? HAHA!

I'm not suppose to be here, I'm suppose to be studying. Well, don't feel like. Dammit.

I want a ka-ma-ra. I meant camera!
I want take pictures and pictures.
AH! Shall hunt for one in Thailand. Hopefully they sell cheap and good quality cams!

&&My newest blogshop (:
OHMISSINDEPENDENT
Used this URL 'cause I was thinking about baby at that point of time. HAHA! Random much?
There you'll find my super irritating face 'cause I'm so damn into myself out of the sudden, every picture must show face one. HAHA! That's how my current blog dp came about. HAHA!

Night night, SLEEP TIME!
Physics paper in the morning. Geography in the afternoon. Baby's night out!
Why did they put the weirdest papers together?

#147. Happiest weekend (:

2009-11-01T23:09:00.003+08:00

Dear babylove.

Baby, somehow you didn't to know this but this is the happiest weekend I've spent with you. See, we are that broke but yet I'm very happy. Did you feel the same way?
Baby, I cried today not because of you ignored me but because of somethings we've shared in the bus; on our way to your house. Somehow I'm affected by that. I may be silly but it's the phobia that's there.

For the first time, I felt that time passes so slow. I think it's for us, to spend more time together.
I miss that already.
We did nothing much except hanging around your crib and literally do stupid things and also looking at each other's dumb dumb face. HAHA!
Even though it's just a very short 2 days, you've made me felt so damn blessed (:

The trip to your grandparent's place made me feel like we're already married.
Me doing all those stupid stuff, that smile on your face. And that laughter we shared when both of us almost tripped at the same time.

Baby, sorry but I've cried again.
I just miss you oh-too damn much.

Baby, in another 2 year. You promised.
Doublecheese burgers and meatballs alright? Can't wait. HAHA!

&Lets' make this coming weekend a.k.a 5th month a better one alright?
I love you baby, and I'm very very very sure that you're the one.

From your dearest silly stupid pig,
Mrs koh (:

我只想用我這一輩子去愛你
從今以後你會是所有
幸福的理由

#145. Misses.

2009-10-30T10:06:00.003+08:00

I miss my 1N2, 2N2, 3N2, 4N2 and 5N2 classmates and teachers.
I miss having recess with BITCH!
I miss walking home from school after school or after C.H.O.I.C.E program with twinny.
I miss going to band.
I miss my seniors and my juniors whom are so ever crazy and entertaining.

I miss eating at KTM with that bunch of people.
I miss chilling at henderson wave with the usuals.
I miss having seafood with the usuals.
I miss dinner plus movie session with the usuals.
I miss hanging out late with the usuals.

&Now,
I miss KOH WEN BIN!
Just because of the damn diarrhea, baby can't book out today. Tsk tsk.
No, I don't miss Van cause I'm meeting her practically everyday =.=

&&I had a nightmare, again.
(POUTS)

#144. Seriously.

2009-10-29T23:31:00.004+08:00

Is it just me or people are getting stranger to me now.
People around me are so getting on their guard to prepare for some sort of battle. Guess what their weapon is, SARCASM!
Just that people around me is getting more and more sarcastic and guess what, I didn't even provoke them in any fucking way! (Okay, maybe I did. But it wasn't intentional!)
&The best part was that they say my attitude suck when their tone wasn't GREAT either. Wow, fantastic people. Just great.

"Please la, she's prettier than you lo"

I mean what the fuck.
Firstly, Nobody ask you to comment.
Secondly, I'm fuckingly a female after all so can't you be like sensitive? Fucker.
Thirdly, what the hell? We didn't bring up the topic "Who's prettier" did we?
Fourthly, maybe it's just because you know me long enough and you know kinda well that's why YOU said it that way.
Fifthly, I know myself that I'm way hotter than the girls you've met YOUR ENTIRE LIFE. Maybe it's just that you don't know me after all! Thank you very much.

In anyway, ask yourself what you've did before saying my attitude suck.
My attitude suck towards you because of what you did and say.
Please reflect. Ask yourself, why am I NOT talking to you.

&I shall thank McDonald's Bukit Merah, for always giving me the idea and the opportunity to blog when I have no single shit to blog about. Thank you people.

P/S : I'm practically talking about everybody. Only certain parts pinpointing at someone.
P/P/S : I'm hella lucky that baby's friends are much more of a gentlemen.

#141. Os started again.

2009-10-26T22:33:00.002+08:00

Van says she like this more. Of course, I took this picture (:

Today's damn fucked up.
First was the repairman for the air conditioner spoiled my mood early in the morning, kept changing their dates to come and repair. Fucker.
Next was I screwed my paper 1 badly. For the last 15minute, I changed my topic just because I was stuck with the one I'm at.
&Now, the bloody internet is fucking laggy.

Seriously, how bad can the day be.

Seriously, I really don't feel like taking the remaining papers.
One, I'm totally not prepared for it and I'm very well aware that I choose not to study during the past months.
Two, right now I'm retaking just for the sake of retaking cause there's people out there psycho-ed me to retake.
You know what, I HATE TO STUDY!
Especially things that I've learn before and totally repeat the same old things.

Fuck Monday man.
Fuck internet more for pissing me off!

#140. Happy two-oh baby (:

2009-10-25T21:59:00.006+08:00

The cute people (:

Saturday was truly awesome.

Work, 8am to 230pm.
Tired much, went to work after having only 3 hours of sleep.
Yes, I wasn't late. See, I can be early only if I want to (:
Work turned out great. Worked with Emma, EOs and STARs and Angel popped by store as well. Did a last minute random verification. It wasn't as scary as I thought it'll be (:
From 24 October 2009, both Fafa and myself are STARs! Yippee!
Omg, can't wait to change uniform (:

After that went over to Vivo and accompany Van for her super late lunch.
Baby met me there and headed over to Holland V for Crystal JadeLMXLB with his bunch of secondary school friends.
Always envied him, most of his friends were from primary or secondary school. Cool uh.

Club/Phuture after that with the usual people(kinda?), I love the songs man! Reggaeton!
Damn pack! What's with IB people nowadays? Been seeing them damn lots, omg.
Some despo kid danced with Van while rubbing his thingy at her. Ewww.
Luckily baby's there or else I won't be dancing in peace :DD

2 more minute to the end of 25 October 2009 (:
Once again,

HAPPY TWENTIETH BABYLOVE!
I love you! (:

PS, Frog and pig will always be together. We'll make this wish come true (:

#139. The most awaited!

2009-10-24T00:00:00.002+08:00

Oh did I tell you guys that I met my secondary 3 PE teacher whom also my secondary 4 form and English teacher at the school I'm taking my Os at? Cool shit man! Both my friend and I was like walking pass the room and we heard and super familiar voice! OMG! So miss that crazy teacher.
&&I met my primary 6 classmate! Cool or what, wonder who else I would meet (:

It's Saturday! Yippee!
My own plans were ruined. No doubt I'll be disappointed but still as long as baby would be enjoying himself (:
At least I've did what I wanted to do, satisfied. Can't wait to see his face :D
OMG, I love you baby.

Working at 8am! Can you believe it? God dammit!
So good night people!
Can't wait for the exciting ahead, hopefully nobody would be trying to ruin my mood :DDD

#138. Untitled, yet again.

2009-10-23T00:52:00.004+08:00

Science practical was gone case but after exam was as usual, fun :D
Spent the rest of the day with Van, again.
I wore nearing to ZERO make up to town, feels damn weird. Get over it singyee.

Bestie day almost everyday, HAHA!

Yippee! It's Friday, midnight like 1am right now. Super excited 'cause I'm gonna hear baby's voice soon enough :DD
His third field camp and I'm still having the emotional shit. Damn damn.

I'm still gonna say this,
I miss baby! I miss your voice, I miss your face (:

#136. Long hair (:

2009-10-21T14:14:00.003+08:00

My hair grew after meeting Van yesterday.
'Cause she pulled my hair, HAHA!
Nah, I just ate some pills and my hair grew long! MAGIC!

Okay, I'm totally kidding.

Omg, long hair makes me feel so comfortable!
(:

I miss you baby.
3 more days!

#135.

2009-10-20T00:24:00.003+08:00

I really hated saying bye to baby, especially when he has to leave for field camp the next day.
Omg, I miss him damn much right now.
I'll be waiting for that message from you baby, on Friday (:

After hanging up, chatted with my two classic jokers Hong Jie and Yong Jiang. These guys are weird seriously. HAHA!

Fucking hell, yesterday's damn HOT! Maybe cause I didn't go out the entire day and thus no rain?
So I'm heading out tomorrow and it's gonna rain, let's see then. Haha.

I MISS KOHWENBIN!
I MISS KOHWENBIN!
I MISS KOHWENBIN!
I MISS KOHWENBIN!
I MISS KOHWENBIN!
I MISS KOHWENBIN!
I MISS KOHWENBIN!
I MISS KOHWENBIN!
I MISS KOHWENBIN!
I MISS KOHWENBIN!

&&I'll be praying for your safety.
Jiayou baby, I believe you can do it! And take good care of yourself.
When you tell me that you're not feeling well and vomited, my heart just broke into pieces.

#134.Random.

2009-10-19T17:50:00.002+08:00

Like always, I did a little cleaning around my room and this time there wasn't much changes.
That's what bored people do.

While clearing out my notes I saw something that was done around a year ago.
&I'm suppose to blog this a year ago.
Well, it's just something Apple wrote.

Guys should be :
- Not taller than 1.75m, BMI <25
- Plays a sport regularly
- Toned physique preferred
- Decent looking
- Classic wardrobe
- No slipper + jeans*
- Proficient in both EL and MT
- Musically trained preferred
- Street smart, witty, determined
- Practices courtesy
- Stable career
- Monk behavior required when facing seduction
- Spiritual > physical
- When aroused, 5-6 inch long and 1 inch thick.
- Sees partner as equal
- Keeps good care of appearance (trims and shaves)

HAHA! Funny uh.

Omg, this week is gonna be so so so great!
Hopefully Saturday comes faster! Can't wait to see baby's face :D
This sounded weird but baby's gonna go field camp tomorrow(pouts) and I'm gonna have peace planning his birthday without having the urge to tell him.
Can't wait can't wait!

Hopefully the pay that's coming out tonight is enough!